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Author Topic: Frustrated  (Read 2333 times)

limegreenmamapants

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Frustrated
« on: September 21, 2021, 10:32:30 pm »
I'm tired of it. I'm tired of therapy. I'm tired of meds. I'm tired of psychiatrists who don't remember the things that I've told them numerous times. I'm tired of pharmacists who raise their eyebrows at me when I pick up my eight psychiatric prescriptions. I'm tired of being told that my condition is treatment resistant. I'm tired of ECT being the answer for what comes next. I'm tired of hearing that we're "reaching the bottom of the barrel" as far as treatment options. I'm tired of non mental health medical providers treating me like crap when I tell them which psych meds I take and which psychiatric conditions I have. I'm tired of this whole thing of hoping that SSA sees that I'm qualified to continue receiving benefits. I'm tired. I don't want this to be my life anymore.

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Re: Frustrated
« Reply #1 on: September 28, 2021, 06:00:39 pm »
I just saw this and wanted you to know you are not alone
Every medical professional including the SSA "independent evaluation" has said I'm unable to work due to my mental illness, but I've been denied at every step of the way. My last suicide attempt is my onset date for my claim, I tried to hang myself 9/6/2017 and failed. That is my official date of onset since that's the incident where the doctors told me not to go back to work, ever. 
I fail at everything and I'm failing at waiting.
The jobs expert at my hearing said that there were no jobs that would accommodate my limitations, the ALJ omitted it from the report.
I'm just so tired of failing over and over.
I don't have any helpful advice for you.  I can say I'm a bit jealous that you've been approved for so long, kudos to you for winning that battle. I feel like if I could just succeed at that one thing, then life might be worth living, even though it's a life of meds and depression and therapies and other failures...if I could just have this one win, maybe I could see some light.  So maybe that's one thing you can hold onto...you have one win in your corner because the battle with SSA was one that you won when so many others have failed.
I don't know if that helps at all.