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Author Topic: Mental Health, SSDI benefits, and life  (Read 2909 times)

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Mental Health, SSDI benefits, and life
« on: January 13, 2022, 07:43:46 pm »
I don't know where to start, so i will just say i have had a very hard life, and keeping jobs, which is why i am where i am today. I have been diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder since i was 14, and Anxiety grew along with it over the years.  I have had many jobs over the course of years from 1995 to 2017, in which i was never successful in keeping. I have a very hard time being around people and dealing with life in general,  in turn causes me to isolate 95% of the time. The 5% of the time is when i go pick up online orders from the grocery store, take my dad to his doctor and go to my Psychiatrist every two months. My doctor knows of my daily troubles, but i worry that when i go to the sessions and he hears that i am not doing any better, he might give up on me, that's my biggest fear. He has been my doctor since March of 2018, and the one suggested i apply for Social Security benefits,  so i followed.

My CDR is coming next February, and my Anxiety doesn't help me in the slighest. I know the SSA finds every reason to stop benefits, and i worry about a lot of things surrounding going through the process of thinking about the future. My ALJ has seen my work history, seen medical evidence about how i have had issues keeping work, i even get scared just thinking about it. I am on different types of medications to help with my symptoms, but doesn't fully drain them, they come back full circle when my body gets used to the medication. I have chronic body pain from my Depression and it feels awful, i just want to stay in bed, even though i need to get up, life is not something i look forward to each day, so dealing with the public just makes it harder.

I hope my doctor doesn't give up on me, it would be extremely difficult for me to see another Psychiatrist that may make me feel worse than i do. It's hard for me to trust, so i trust the one i have now, and with a creeping CDR approaching, i just don't know how to handle things currently, , it is difficult to think clearly when there are things happening around the world. I might be rambling here, i wanted to vent a little, thanks for hearing me out.
Location: Texas
Disabilities: Depression, Anxiety
Age: 45
Date of Application: 7/2018
Approval Date: 2/2020
First Benefit Date: 3/2020

First CDR Date:2/2023

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Re: Mental Health, SSDI benefits, and life
« Reply #1 on: January 13, 2022, 09:03:07 pm »
My doctor knows of my daily troubles, but i worry that when i go to the sessions and he hears that i am not doing any better, he might give up on me, that's my biggest fear. He has been my doctor since March of 2018, and the one suggested i apply for Social Security benefits,  so i followed.

My CDR is coming next February, and my Anxiety doesn't help me in the slighest. I know the SSA finds every reason to stop benefits, and i worry about a lot of things surrounding going through the process of thinking about the future.

I hope my doctor doesn't give up on me, it would be extremely difficult for me to see another Psychiatrist that may make me feel worse than i do.

When you're applying for benefits is when it usually feels like SSA is trying to find every reason not to START benefits. Once you're on disability though, they don't usually go out of their way looking for reasons to STOP your benefits as long as your disability continues, you're seeking any necessary treatment, and so forth.

Regarding your doctor giving up on you, perhaps I've just been fortunate but I haven't had one give up on me yet--psychiatrist or psychologist. Sometimes I tell my psychologist I'm both her best and worst patient. "Best" because I'm a steady revenue stream for her year after year (I say this in kind of a joking way and she knows my sense of humor at this point) and also "Worst" because I make progress so slowly and sometimes it feels like two steps forward and one step back or even one step forward and two steps back (hopefully you get what I mean).

She says I'm not the "best" because of the revenue stream thing but because I keep coming back and attending my appointments and trying. I guess it would be worse if I just gave up altogether and stopped coming to appointments?

Same thing kind of goes for my psychiatrist. I think something really bad has to happen (or your doctor changes practices or retires) for your doctor to stop seeing you as a patient. Or, sometimes a doctor might refer you to another doctor with the appropriate experience in treating your condition if it's totally out of their scope of practice. But based on what you've wrote, I don't think you have anything to worry about.

Just my 2 cents.
Location: IL
Age at Application: 31
Disability: Depression, anxiety
Applied: 11/2013
First Denial: 03/2014
Reconsideration Denial: 11/2014
Hearing: 11/13/15 (Friday the 13th!)
ALJ Approval: 01/15/16 Fully Favorable
Back Pay: 02/13/16
Award Letter: 02/17/16
1st monthly benefit: 03/21/16

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Re: Mental Health, SSDI benefits, and life
« Reply #2 on: January 13, 2022, 10:45:43 pm »
Thank you very much.  I am doing what i can to live my life, one day at a time. I am glad i found this page, and share my experiences with the SSA.
Location: Texas
Disabilities: Depression, Anxiety
Age: 45
Date of Application: 7/2018
Approval Date: 2/2020
First Benefit Date: 3/2020

First CDR Date:2/2023

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« Reply #3 on: October 12, 2022, 03:50:15 pm »
I hate to restart this, but my mental health hasn't improved since my approval in 2020. My CDR date is fast approaching and there isn't anything more nerve wrecking than not knowing which form is coming. I know it can come early, or late, but it being my first, it's a bit hard to live normally with the symptoms i still experience. I still am not able to work, and my doctor and i agrees that i can't, but i always wonder what he writes in the notes he takes when talking to him. Psychiatrists are unreadable, never knowing what they are thinking.

I still take my medications, but due to inflation, instead of 2 month sessions, now it's 3. My next session is in January,  next to my cdr month...I'm scared, confused on how to handle things, and still not good being around people. Depression, Anxiety and Borderline Personality Disorder is a terrible life to live, i sometimes feel disgusted waking up each day, knowing my life still sucks. I know the SSA can care less how i feel, i am trying to find a purpose to carry on. People don't understand how difficult it is to live with an mental illness, it's a nightmare.
Location: Texas
Disabilities: Depression, Anxiety
Age: 45
Date of Application: 7/2018
Approval Date: 2/2020
First Benefit Date: 3/2020

First CDR Date:2/2023

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Re: Mental Health, SSDI benefits, and life
« Reply #4 on: October 13, 2022, 08:46:17 am »
i think the treatment interval is acceptable.  I would strongly guess that your first cdr will be long and usually comes 24m after approvel then you are placed on a diary of 3, 5 or 7 with a mie, mip or mine

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« Reply #5 on: October 13, 2022, 08:58:57 am »
i think the treatment interval is acceptable.  I would strongly guess that your first cdr will be long and usually comes 24m after approvel then you are placed on a diary of 3, 5 or 7 with a mie, mip or mine

Hi, yes my approval letter stated i was MIP, with  a 3 year diary. I'll get through this, I'm just over thinking this whole situation.
Location: Texas
Disabilities: Depression, Anxiety
Age: 45
Date of Application: 7/2018
Approval Date: 2/2020
First Benefit Date: 3/2020

First CDR Date:2/2023

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Re: Mental Health, SSDI benefits, and life
« Reply #6 on: October 13, 2022, 09:15:11 am »
keep us informed when it comes

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« Reply #7 on: October 13, 2022, 09:33:07 am »
May the odds always be in your favor!
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« Reply #8 on: October 13, 2022, 10:55:59 am »
Keep your head up..I know it's easier said than done, but most of us on here iam sure know how you feel and what you going through.. I was expecting my first CDR next year as well, and what do I know..just had the short form in the mail a couple days ago. It is somehow I relief,at least for me, to go through the process now..at least I don't have to wonder every morning if today is the day that the letter is in my mailbox. I also expected the long form from the get go, but was only sent the short form..does not mean I wont get the long form in a couple months..but iam hopeful they wont do that. All I am trying to say is that I think the thoughts and worrying about when and what they send you in the mail was more stressful than actually being in the process now. I already know that I am not gonna let some dude/gal who never met me sitting behind a desk just take my benefits, cause they "think" we are good now. So dont let that scare you..and I doubt your doctor will just give up on you..have a little faith in the people around you who are trying to help you.

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« Reply #9 on: October 13, 2022, 08:05:12 pm »
Keep your head up..I know it's easier said than done, but most of us on here iam sure know how you feel and what you going through.. I was expecting my first CDR next year as well, and what do I know..just had the short form in the mail a couple days ago. It is somehow I relief,at least for me, to go through the process now..at least I don't have to wonder every morning if today is the day that the letter is in my mailbox. I also expected the long form from the get go, but was only sent the short form..does not mean I wont get the long form in a couple months..but iam hopeful they wont do that. All I am trying to say is that I think the thoughts and worrying about when and what they send you in the mail was more stressful than actually being in the process now. I already know that I am not gonna let some dude/gal who never met me sitting behind a desk just take my benefits, cause they "think" we are good now. So dont let that scare you..and I doubt your doctor will just give up on you..have a little faith in the people around you who are trying to help you.


Thank you for the words of encouragement VET76, it does help knowing I'm not alone in this. Good to know there are supportive people out there. My mental health takes a big hit worrying about my future and how to care for myself when things get bad. I just got to take it one step at a time.
Location: Texas
Disabilities: Depression, Anxiety
Age: 45
Date of Application: 7/2018
Approval Date: 2/2020
First Benefit Date: 3/2020

First CDR Date:2/2023

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« Reply #10 on: October 16, 2022, 12:03:52 pm »
I just got bad news Friday. My Psychiatrist called and said he doesn't want to see me no longer. He said that i was difficult to treat due to my mental health severity. This doesn't help me when a CDR is very close on being sent out...and i don't know if finding another doctor in 2 months is going to help my case. I feel like giving up, throwing in the towel.

I don't know what else to say right now...I'm completely unmotivated.
Location: Texas
Disabilities: Depression, Anxiety
Age: 45
Date of Application: 7/2018
Approval Date: 2/2020
First Benefit Date: 3/2020

First CDR Date:2/2023

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Re: Mental Health, SSDI benefits, and life
« Reply #11 on: October 16, 2022, 12:39:38 pm »
You need to start looking for a new doctor tomorrow. It might take a while to find a doctor that is accepting new patients and/or Medicare. So do not waste time
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« Reply #12 on: October 16, 2022, 04:26:54 pm »
First of all you are not giving up!  Its a little blip that you can help fix!

  Find that motivation and go get done what needs to be done! You worked to damn hard to let this go now!

     Take care of you!
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« Reply #13 on: October 16, 2022, 05:09:38 pm »
I just got bad news Friday. My Psychiatrist called and said he doesn't want to see me no longer. He said that i was difficult to treat due to my mental health severity. This doesn't help me when a CDR is very close on being sent out...and i don't know if finding another doctor in 2 months is going to help my case. I feel like giving up, throwing in the towel.

I don't know what else to say right now...I'm completely unmotivated.

SSA just wants the records for the last year or so of treatment so make sure you get a copy of your medical records from the past 1-2 years from your old psychiatrist or find out their plan (governed by state law I think) for retaining your treatment records or transferring them to a new psychiatrist.

If you have a CDR, you'll just list your old psychiatrist and new psychiatrist and between the two of them, there will be records to cover the past 1 year of medical records. The only thing that can get tricky is if the old psychiatrist is retiring and doesn't follow the rules regarding retaining patient records for a certain period of time--which is why you might want to try to get ahold of the records yourself or have them transferred to any new psychiatrist you find.

It can be hard finding a new psychiatrist but not necessarily impossible and it's probably better that your current doctor admitted that he couldn't properly treat you so that you now have the opportunity to find a doctor that is better equipped to treat you.
Location: IL
Age at Application: 31
Disability: Depression, anxiety
Applied: 11/2013
First Denial: 03/2014
Reconsideration Denial: 11/2014
Hearing: 11/13/15 (Friday the 13th!)
ALJ Approval: 01/15/16 Fully Favorable
Back Pay: 02/13/16
Award Letter: 02/17/16
1st monthly benefit: 03/21/16

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« Reply #14 on: October 18, 2022, 06:39:34 pm »
I just got bad news Friday. My Psychiatrist called and said he doesn't want to see me no longer. He said that i was difficult to treat due to my mental health severity. This doesn't help me when a CDR is very close on being sent out...and i don't know if finding another doctor in 2 months is going to help my case. I feel like giving up, throwing in the towel.

I don't know what else to say right now...I'm completely unmotivated.

SSA just wants the records for the last year or so of treatment so make sure you get a copy of your medical records from the past 1-2 years from your old psychiatrist or find out their plan (governed by state law I think) for retaining your treatment records or transferring them to a new psychiatrist.

If you have a CDR, you'll just list your old psychiatrist and new psychiatrist and between the two of them, there will be records to cover the past 1 year of medical records. The only thing that can get tricky is if the old psychiatrist is retiring and doesn't follow the rules regarding retaining patient records for a certain period of time--which is why you might want to try to get ahold of the records yourself or have them transferred to any new psychiatrist you find.

It can be hard finding a new psychiatrist but not necessarily impossible and it's probably better that your current doctor admitted that he couldn't properly treat you so that you now have the opportunity to find a doctor that is better equipped to treat you.

I appreciate your input newdawn, but what has me worried is what he has put in my medical records that could negatively affect my continuation of benefits. I'm concerned he may put something in there totally different from what i told him. I don't know, maybe I'm just over thinking. It would destroy me a Psychiatrist i trusted for 4 years, silently went Rouge. I'm a mess right now.
Location: Texas
Disabilities: Depression, Anxiety
Age: 45
Date of Application: 7/2018
Approval Date: 2/2020
First Benefit Date: 3/2020

First CDR Date:2/2023