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Author Topic: Mental Health, SSDI benefits, and life  (Read 1291 times)

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Mental Health, SSDI benefits, and life
« on: January 13, 2022, 07:43:46 pm »
I don't know where to start, so i will just say i have had a very hard life, and keeping jobs, which is why i am where i am today. I have been diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder since i was 14, and Anxiety grew along with it over the years.  I have had many jobs over the course of years from 1995 to 2017, in which i was never successful in keeping. I have a very hard time being around people and dealing with life in general,  in turn causes me to isolate 95% of the time. The 5% of the time is when i go pick up online orders from the grocery store, take my dad to his doctor and go to my Psychiatrist every two months. My doctor knows of my daily troubles, but i worry that when i go to the sessions and he hears that i am not doing any better, he might give up on me, that's my biggest fear. He has been my doctor since March of 2018, and the one suggested i apply for Social Security benefits,  so i followed.

My CDR is coming next February, and my Anxiety doesn't help me in the slighest. I know the SSA finds every reason to stop benefits, and i worry about a lot of things surrounding going through the process of thinking about the future. My ALJ has seen my work history, seen medical evidence about how i have had issues keeping work, i even get scared just thinking about it. I am on different types of medications to help with my symptoms, but doesn't fully drain them, they come back full circle when my body gets used to the medication. I have chronic body pain from my Depression and it feels awful, i just want to stay in bed, even though i need to get up, life is not something i look forward to each day, so dealing with the public just makes it harder.

I hope my doctor doesn't give up on me, it would be extremely difficult for me to see another Psychiatrist that may make me feel worse than i do. It's hard for me to trust, so i trust the one i have now, and with a creeping CDR approaching, i just don't know how to handle things currently, , it is difficult to think clearly when there are things happening around the world. I might be rambling here, i wanted to vent a little, thanks for hearing me out.

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Re: Mental Health, SSDI benefits, and life
« Reply #1 on: January 13, 2022, 09:03:07 pm »
My doctor knows of my daily troubles, but i worry that when i go to the sessions and he hears that i am not doing any better, he might give up on me, that's my biggest fear. He has been my doctor since March of 2018, and the one suggested i apply for Social Security benefits,  so i followed.

My CDR is coming next February, and my Anxiety doesn't help me in the slighest. I know the SSA finds every reason to stop benefits, and i worry about a lot of things surrounding going through the process of thinking about the future.

I hope my doctor doesn't give up on me, it would be extremely difficult for me to see another Psychiatrist that may make me feel worse than i do.

When you're applying for benefits is when it usually feels like SSA is trying to find every reason not to START benefits. Once you're on disability though, they don't usually go out of their way looking for reasons to STOP your benefits as long as your disability continues, you're seeking any necessary treatment, and so forth.

Regarding your doctor giving up on you, perhaps I've just been fortunate but I haven't had one give up on me yet--psychiatrist or psychologist. Sometimes I tell my psychologist I'm both her best and worst patient. "Best" because I'm a steady revenue stream for her year after year (I say this in kind of a joking way and she knows my sense of humor at this point) and also "Worst" because I make progress so slowly and sometimes it feels like two steps forward and one step back or even one step forward and two steps back (hopefully you get what I mean).

She says I'm not the "best" because of the revenue stream thing but because I keep coming back and attending my appointments and trying. I guess it would be worse if I just gave up altogether and stopped coming to appointments?

Same thing kind of goes for my psychiatrist. I think something really bad has to happen (or your doctor changes practices or retires) for your doctor to stop seeing you as a patient. Or, sometimes a doctor might refer you to another doctor with the appropriate experience in treating your condition if it's totally out of their scope of practice. But based on what you've wrote, I don't think you have anything to worry about.

Just my 2 cents.
Location: IL
Age at Application: 31
Disability: Depression, anxiety
Applied: 11/2013
First Denial: 03/2014
Reconsideration Denial: 11/2014
Hearing: 11/13/15 (Friday the 13th!)
ALJ Approval: 01/15/16 Fully Favorable
Back Pay: 02/13/16
Award Letter: 02/17/16
1st monthly benefit: 03/21/16

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Re: Mental Health, SSDI benefits, and life
« Reply #2 on: January 13, 2022, 10:45:43 pm »
Thank you very much.  I am doing what i can to live my life, one day at a time. I am glad i found this page, and share my experiences with the SSA.