Thank you all for.your kind words
First, my medical conditions that were claimed for my disability is PTSD,,which includes nigjtmares, panic attacks,deptesseion,anxiety,irrationalitissolation with two episodes of suicide ideation which put me in a outpatient program in texas.
I also had a level 2 fusion on my neck two years ago, with the loss of most range of motion, carpal tunnel and also pending a lower back surgery which the VA is hesitant to do. I still have loss of feelings in both hands ,also due to carpal tunnel and my messed up cervical. I am also on a breathing machine for my sleep apnea and migraines.
I had my last doctor and most recently my current VA counselor telling me that I cant work, maybe he will write a letter. He just wrote me a second recommendation letter for a service dog, i will also see a local psychiatrist in addition to the VA counselor..they have a hard time getting me as much as they would like to.
So in short, I have back problems..but I would not have filed for disability for.it..this is mainly because of my PTSD. It is hard to function normal for me.in society, always feel being watched, panic attacks in crowds and being afraid to go to sleep because of what I might dream makes life hard. I am completely disconnected and isolated from anyone, this is not to make stuff up or make it sound pitiful, it's just the truth. I cant sit for very long without daydreaming, getting really bad headaches and can not concentrate. There is more I could write about it..but I think you get the picture..i take pills for all of it...two times a day 7 pills..i am tired of it..that's where also the dog would come into play.
As far as the denial letters..they did not mention PTSD, just a paragraph that I suffer from depressions, but not severe enough to preclude me from work. With my back it says I suffer from back problems that preclude me from walking far and cant bend or lift heavy objects..or something like that...I threw them away. I dont understand how they determine I have episodes of depressions when I have hundreds of pages of treatment records and a VA psychiatrist diagnosing me total socially and occupationally impaired without any expected improvement in the future.
I have access to my medical records and could go through them...its over 2000 pages and will take.some time. My Attorney keeps telling me not to worry and that he is sure I will get a favorable decision by the judge...even the DDS examiner I talked to on the phone after they asked for some.records told me that he cant give me an answer over the phone but he has not seen anyone with my conditions being turned down..although he said th ey have no leniency and have to be by the book when making decisions.
This is all very stressful..I am grateful that I get continues care by the VA and have my disability compensation as.well as.my military retirement, so I still can support myself. I can only.imagine how someone will get.lost in the system without the financial and even worse the medical support i still receive. However, i again by no means asking for too much, I am not lazy nor afraid to work..I just can not and when medical professionals tell me that I should not and can not..then i will follow their advice.
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